Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Who am I?

GSU requires an insane amount of paperwork. I am currently working on filling out my G.T.A. packet, which seems to be getting bigger each time I complete a form. The really fun part is that every single piece of paper asks me for all of my demographic information--the address I don't live at yet, the office phone number that I don't have yet, my entire educational history, and more transcripts. I am becoming more convinced that my Ph.D. may be in Paperwork, instead of Literature.

My favorite form so far is the "I am not a subversive person" form, which needed to be notarized.

Despite the redundancy of all the forms, or perhaps because of it, I have been pondering on the summation of my life and identity. It's amazing/disturbing to be continuously reducing my graduate work to one line that reads "VCU 2001-2003 MA English--Literature." What I really want to do is to construct bizarre and astonishing origami creations out of each page, or fill the envelope with glitter and silver stars, or answer each question in haiku. Since I'm not sure what GSU would make of that, I have limited myself to completing each form in azure ink.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

What I'll Miss about Richmond

Richmond is a city of excessive randomness. A couple nights ago I was over at the boys' apartment, engaging in a grading/video game combo marathon, when my mother called. I stepped outside onto the balcony to talk to her, and noticed that the downstairs neighbors were having a party in the parking lot. I paid little attention, passively noticing the tiki torches, solo cups, dance music, and clusters of people chatting and laughing. I was unclear as to the purpose of the fire extinguisher and white plastic buckets in the parking lot, but I failed to creatively ponder the presence of these items. As I related various bits of moving drama to my mother, one of the girls in the party picked up two long metals with black balls on the end, and proceeded to submerge the black balls in the white plastic bucket. Although I considered this unusual, she did not fully capture my attention until she carried the two chains over to the tiki torches and lit them on fire.

Equipped with two flaming chains, she walked towards the middle of the parking lot and began swinging them into circles. As the chains gained momentum, her circles became more elaborate, and she began dancing, swinging these fireballs like they were gymnastic ribbons, making twirling S's in the air, creating a glowing field around her body as she danced.

It was one of the coolest things I've ever seen.

I explained to my mother why I had to go, and proceeded to be captivated by the fire-dance. She had to be a professional fire twirler dancing person--she was just too awesome. And apparently she was, because when she was finished, she asked some dude if he was ready to give it a try. He said he was, and bravely lit some chains on fire, and began making clumsy circles with them. He hit himself in the leg, recovered, hit himself in the chest (which was a little more serious) recovered again, and then made some pretty elaborate twirls. He retired to some scattered applause.

Then the Queen of Fire did an encore with a fellow who was apparently ALSO a professional fire twirling person! They did synchronized choreography with their gouts of flame on chains, making cocentric circles and swirls . . . it was astonishing.

And all of this happened in a bloody Fan parking lot, secluded in an alley. In a corner, near one of the buildings, some girl stood on a trash can and starting singing in what sounded like French (with gestures and everything). In the center, people learned how to twirl fire. And I could have walked downstairs, and said, "I want to learn fire dancing. Please teach me." And they would have taught me, if I had asked.